PAIN

 

Gut wrenching, heart searing pain. That's what I feel when I think of how much I let you hurt me...

To think that I was instrumental to my death without knowing...

I knew better but, I  let you hurt me

I knew better, yet, i gave you my heart. 

I knew better and I still chose to trust you.

I stayed, and i stayed and I stayed through it all. I lost myself and I didn't even realize that I was lost. 

I lost hope in all that I once stood for.

I lost the will to do anything else because the pain began to feel normal. 

"Oh, maybe if I stay a little longer, I'll grow numb" I thought.

No more...

NO MORE!!

No more of the pain and the hurt and the anxiety. 

Today and going forward,

I choose love;

I choose light;

I choose peace and most importantly,

I choose NO PAIN

I will find my way back to me, even if it is the last thing that I do. It's a promise.